Once again... I wanna go home. || 2008-05-11 at 2:24 a.m.
I miss home. A lot. Kris knows but I can tell he really doesn't want to move.
I'm going home. I'm not sure when not for four or five months because I have to save some money but it's going to happen. Plus, I'm going whether Kris decides he wants to go or not.
It pisses me off a little bit because he seems like he's not willing to do as much for me as I am for him. I left everything for him. Not that I had much to leave but the few things I did have meant a lot to me.
I can't stop thinking about it. I can't sleep because I'm thinking about it and when I finally do go to sleep I sleep for far too long and I believe it's because I'm depressed. I've been having cravings for cocaine, extacy, and even meth.
I guess going home would be a little dangerous because of the fact that the people I used to get high with are there.
Plus, I want to live with my parents again but that can't happen right now because my brother's girlfriend moved into my room after I left.
But if I save enough money I figure I can buy a ticket home and live on my parents couch until I find a job and have a source of income then I'll move into a shitty little studio apartment.
Well, that's the plan right now.
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